She's a Cadet.
I fell in love. She and I are inseparable for most of the year. I miss her terribly during the winter.
But I snuck out of Aloha today and met up with her at her place.
We had a glorious day together in the sun, even with the chilly coastal winds. She didn't let me down, true to her Kawasaki self. Out in nature, our zen aligned and we zero turned around 16 walnut trees, purring over the two green acres. Ahhhhh........
Okay, I didn't really sneak out. Just wanted to see if anyone was paying attention. I woke with a purpose this morning, a calling, a passion to see Cub. Rosie stayed home with Jolynn and Eli.
I took Bear on my rendezvous. We like to separate the pups sometimes,...makes the heart grow fonder. Just shaking things up here in the land and lull of recovery.
Pandora kept me company while I dared to open my sunroof on the drive out to Polk County.. I had to pump up the volume to hear the Eagles. I know that Jolynn is going to survive this and come back to her conscious joyful self. It won't be long until she is singing with me in the car, again. Swinging her hammer around, loading junk in her trailer, running boards through her table saw.
Tears fogged up my already cloudy cataracts. (Yes, I have cataracts. I'll be 65 this year. Of course I have cataracts....the surgery is planned for after the 100 Plus Day era.) I'm worried. I'm sad. I struggle to find optimism. Yet, I forge ahead, alongside the surfer girl, a lover and a friend.
And I know you won't let me down....
She is happy to have Eli here from NJ. Food is still difficult for her digestion as she struggles with nausea even with the medication. Total and complete exhaustion rule her day but that is now.......soon, we will see a more energetic Jolynn. Her weight loss worries the hell out of me but then I am comforted by my research that states it is normal for a stem cell transplant patient to feel utterly bone weary. Bone Weary - good name for it. Appointments on every Monday and Thursday follow her weight and blood counts so there is accountability. Yes, medical staff are paying attention.
In the meantime, I am trying to find solace in the silly nuances of life and appreciation for the modest. I have a pair of Kate Spade sunglasses from a second hand shop. They have a discreet, but very cool, green highlight. Driving my car with my subtle sunglasses, open sunroof, the Eagles, a flaky croissant and a cup of coffee, headed out to meet up with Cub..... ya. All I need now is Jolynn's harmony next to me, while she drives, holding my hand.
I know it's going to be okay.
Cause I'm already standing on the ground.....
The Eagles
https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x11kias
Joy is hiding, sometimes cruely. Today you found it! You win!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jed. Yay for fleeting moments.
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy she is back and I hope she gets her energy back soon too!
ReplyDeleteThank you Ann! She is getting better day by day.
Delete