Slow Mo

Extreme worry has paralyzed whatever creative neurons might have been lurking in my red head these past few weeks.
But,
           
                             My NYC babe is going to be okay.....she's coming out of the woods.
                                             .................Exhale..........
                   
Meanwhile, in the city of roses, there's pruning, fertilizing, weeding, nurturing, adoring going on in our yard.  We haven't been in this property a whole year yet so there's lots to explore.  Sitting next to the leaded glass multi paned windows in our living room,  I can watch the leaves on the rose bushes emerge slowly in the warm sun, glimmering with their newborn leaves.  Outside, the lilac bushes are ripe with deliciously scented petals that whiff through the large Rhododendrons as we work and swing in our yard, oblivious to quarantine.  It's not until I go inside and read the plethora of news articles do I remember the bullshit going on in this country.

Why is Karma so laid back?  I want to arm Karma and send it out do it's job.  Start on the Florida beaches dear Karma...go, go sprinkle your kismet to those who taunt you....the protesters, in particular...the whitey carrying swastikas, the trumptillian, moronic imbeciles of the shameful republican party.  Bullseye. 

Two shuffles forward, one shuffle back.
Jolynn is at Day Plus 74.  The path is bumpy, laden with stomach issues and nausea and vomiting and lethargic afternoons.  It's not one big happy adventure.  The weekly clinic visits continue to show excellent blood counts but her weight is a yo yo.  Food still doesn't please her no matter how we try to get variety and healthy options, delivered to us by our online neighborhood grocer.  I continue to research the whole bone marrow transplant universe because I need to stay informed, to focus on the big picture, to keep it real.  I found an article on the American Cancer Society that I will post here in case anyone else is as interested in the facts as I am.  The struggle is real.  Documented.  She's on a well worn path, a gravel path that isn't always pleasing with bare feet.  But still we go forward with hope.
                                       What to Expect:
https://www.cancer.org/treatment/treatments-and-side-effects/treatment-types/stem-cell-transplant/transplant-side-effects.html

Jolynn insisted on helping me plant some flowers last week.  She has good days and bad days while she waits for her hair to grow back, ever so slowly.

Moving Slow and it's alright.
       
                                                                Curtis Mayfield
                                      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Du9pCalSCU